Not of your design
i don't think like you
so why should i write like you
my thoughts
my world
so why should i write like you
my thoughts
my world
(04/11/2004; 02:48am) - radar {drunkj}
i give up
another girl appeared to whom i was attracted
but it means nothing
why?
because
just because
(04/11/2004; 02:46am) - tax day {drunk}
at times like these
i attempt to write out my frustration
as if putting pen to paper
will wet my metaphorical quill
(03/28/2004; 11:41pm) - ::rewind:: the difference
most blogs, journals, yada and whatever
are indistinguishable from the next
but we have
a negro wandering japan
a student in lennigrad rooming with a bill o'reilly wannabe
a guy who has abandoned the standard narrative
and another who saw frogs and ping-pong balls
come out of the nether region of a chick dancing in a naughty naughty bar
so yeah. i think we're different
(03/26/2004; 11:08pm) - ::rewind::still coding
tired
on the brink of exhaustion
i realize what i'm trying to make
smile
and push on
(03/26/2004; 11:01pm) - ::rewind::melounge V3
the more i think about it
the more excited i get
this is it
the thing i always wanted
the site i was dreaming of
when benny looked at me and said
call it melounge
(03/21/2004; 04:20pm) - ::rewind:: hindsight
only with 12 hours of sleep between now
and the previous day
do i truly see
how miserable i was last night
(03/21/2004; 04:04pm) - i may die one day, but thank god that week is over
the beautiful thing about time
is that it propels me further and further
from last week
(03/21/2004; 03:27am) - ::rewind:: untitled #03
insecuruty waits around ever corner to ambush me
to confront me with the person i once was
and affirm that as the truth
yet as before::when that was the reality:: i fight
but not without the fear of making inroads
(03/21/2004; 03:20am) - ::rewind:: untitled #02
why is it i can not couple
why is it i care so deeply
i long to grow beyond these biological urges
to leave
the trappings of my own emitions behind
my humanity
behind me
instead
my heart gently breaks
as i watch a couple snuggle beside me
(03/21/2004; 03:10am) - ::rewind:: unttitled #01
i don't know what to do with myself
with those feelings yearning to be set free
yet paralyzed by reality
all i want...
with no sincere way to complete the sentence,
only half truths.
a void where THE truth should be
leavning me::as always::
alone