Not of your design

i don't think like you
so why should i write like you
my thoughts
my world

pondering the cliff on the long way home

(06/14/2003; 06:35pm) - pondering the cliff on the long way home

sitting in the place
where exhaustion is a state of mind rather than a state of body
and the universe has schemed to triple the number of trains to take me home

I have nothing but questions

but sitting here
tired
wet
alone
and jealous
i cant help but ask why I don?t get off

there are no bonus points for the trailblazers
no extra honor for the sentinel, ever present

just the bed. empty.

and as i look at my day
and as i compare it to the day of others

i can?t help but ask myself.
is it worth it.